I did it!! Actually completed week 5 including the super scary run 3 which involved 20 mins continuous running. Today’s run was tough. I think it was mostly mental as it’s the longest I’ve run in one go in a very long time! It was also a little physical. Shins were fine which is good, although they are a little sore now. It was the ankles that ached today but it does seem to be getting easier. My recover after is getting better too which is good.

Overall this week was a struggle. I think the isolation of lockdown is finally getting to me. I’m struggling with motivation with work and my eating has been a little more sporadic than I am aiming. I’ve missed a few walks this week too as I’ve been super tired and hugely unmotivated. But I am sticking to the runs which is good and I am proud of myself for doing that. Progress not perfection, right?

I now have 4 days off work (yay for the long weekend!!). I think I need to take some time to have another look at what, or who, I want to be when I grow up. It is becoming clearer that although I do sometimes enjoy parts of my job, it is not something I’m passionate about. Now that I spend so much time working alone I’m beginning to see that being passionate about what I do is important to me. Unfortunately I’m not sure what, or even if, there is anything I’m passionate about. I’m hoping that searching for a passion will help me find some level of motivation. Failing that I’m gonna clean some more and start packing.